Is seeing you worse than not seeing you? It feels like both are the wrong answer to a terrible problem I didn’t want to have to solve. Not like this - not before I go away. Going away is my lone solace to this whole situation. I went after what I wanted and I got it but it had to go. And so do I. The problem is I’m not gone yet. And I still have feelings for you. When you allow yourself to, I think I can see you still have feelings for me.
Those nights we had together in your bed haunt me. Sit quietly in the back of my mind like a leaky faucet - drip drip drip.